Saturday, February 11, 2017

Random Thoughts on Writing: Blown Away (aka a bit of maudlin)

There are moments…

The first time a teacher talks to your parents, not because they’re “concerned” about homework or timidity or lack of smile, but because the words you put onto paper were well-placed and worthwhile.

The first time you offer your poetry for criticism and the vultures tear into it, beak and claw and the hunched ruffle of feathers.  They leave bones.  And you think, “Thank God for the Carrion Eaters.”

when the air stills in your chest…

The puff of pride when, looking up at the person you’ve always looked up to, they pause to ask your opinion.  And the humbling stumbling realization of flaws, the relief of knowing you can help.

The awed devastation of pens packed away, a book unfinished and buried at the feet of someone whose opinion mattered more.  You know now how little your words matter.  So you don’t say, “But you taught me better than that.”  You mourn the dead, and move on.

and fingers fail…

A sheaf of papers, cheap ink on the back of rejected mimeograph, and brilliance.  It’s looking up at a man who, effortless and unpracticed, has written something better than anything you will ever do.  And it doesn’t matter which others have disappointed.  He must keep writing.  And the moment you realize he will not.  He doesn’t bother with a grave.  This book is memorialized in the trash heap. 

And everything you do after, the stubborn pages, the awkward phrases, seem somehow cheap.  You keep them anyway, unwilling, unable to do more.

and you’re done…
                                   for the night but not forever.

Monday, February 6, 2017

Random Thoughts on Writing: Antecedent

It starts with a 3 ring binder.  It is cheap, pink and pearlescent with a plastic cover that bubbles at the edges.  Pencil scribblings on lined paper.  She has her own pad of paper, and a cartoon etching of a girl with a microphone.

It is late, a Friday maybe, a Saturday?  One blurred moment from a thousand such sleep-overs.

That odd empty moment between gossip (hers) and the Barbies (mine) we are both too old for.

“I’m going to be a singer,” she tells me, and she doesn’t have to say famous, doesn’t have to say rich.  She is shading her future in a blue gown.   

In the game of what if, I tell her I want to work in insurance.

But I am not prescient and we are too young for dry humor.

Instead, I stare at the binder in my hands, the half-hearted story inside it, print letters dulled in lead. 

“I want to be a writer,” I say.  There is no epiphany.  This is no covenant.  “I’ll write books.”

She doesn’t look at me, and doesn’t scoff.

It is enough. 

My fingers stick to the plastic of the binder. 

I wonder if I would have said something else if I’d been holding a Barbie Doll or brushing my hair.

Friday, October 7, 2016

OctPoWriMo #7 2016: Dieter's Lament

The Dieter’s Lament

Lips and tongue and teeth will say
salty, sweet and tasty.
And, hasty,

Defeat is

Poet's Note:  The prompt was tasty...diets are on the mind...guess why.

Thursday, October 6, 2016

OctPoWriMo #6 2016: Tantalus


I am too tired for
Tantalus.  I have a book
and the bittered tint of tea
on my tongue.  My pleasures
are with me.  Take
the apple;

The waters
will not retreat.

Drink.  No god

Poet's Note:  The prompt...tantalizing.  But I wasn't in the mood for thoughts of deprivation...which seem always to go with.  So...

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

OctPoWrimo #5 2016: With a Knife

With a Knife

I imagine the knife drawn
along my spine,
sharpened curve baring
one bowed, vertebrae
like breadcrumbs
cast to ground
and leading

I suppose
bone should be
fair warning.

The skin peels,
pulp, the red rush
of a monster’s

It doesn’t mind
the seeds;
It feeds,
succeeds its prey.

I leave my skin,
walk burning.

 Poet's Note:  The prompt  Went a little literal...then a little not so...or nutso.  :-)

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

OctPoWriMo #4 2016: Purple People Eaters

Purple People Eaters

Plumping blush of sky, that skirt,
shirt, polka dot reminder of fifth grade
and glasses, the molasses of a photograph
sticky in its frame, unchanging
despite the summers, the plum purpose
of time derailed in the mind.

Blind, we paint with
purpled fingers
the dark edge
of a sunset, the lesser
pledge of the seashell, the frill
and fair remnant of a life
and we envy.

The dinosaur offers
dime-store rhymes for the taking,
making strange and magnanimous gestures
like a hug, snug in the surety there is
no connection, no flesh to press
nor face to ingest.

Did you think he had no teeth?

Purple like pain, the purpling words
of a bruised ego.

I like green better, maybe yellow.

Poet's Note:  The prompt was purple...I truly enjoyed the exercise...others may judge the results.

Monday, October 3, 2016

OctPoWriMo #3 2016: A girl says to a boy

A girl says to a boy…

You think I like diamonds.
And fun.
Maybe lunch.

All true, but not enough

to justify a definition.

Poet's Note:  The prompt...sparkle.  :-/